Surrender Your Stagnant Belief

June 25, 2022

This morning at 5am, I woke up with an epiphany so abrupt and so intensely powerful that awoken and opened my eyes to this world through a new lens. A perspective so different, so liberating, that it felt like a rebirth. I know. It sounds absolutely exaggerated, except it is not.

We said goodbye to Grandma on Wednesday, June 22, 2022.

I have also been at a junction in my life, where I am faced with more than the goodbye to my grandma but also a few other, albeit some less permanent.

Life unfolds in proportion to your courage.

Sometime in my adolescent life, I’ve decided that I was absolutely no good at Goodbye’s. I never quite understood why that was the narrative I vehemently committed myself to. Perhaps it was because it gave me complete and total permission to dwell in my sorrow. Perhaps it was because it absolved me of the responsibility of processing my loss.

Whatever my flawed reasons were, I’ve finally come to let them go—this morning at 5am.

Until you change your narrative, you will always be confined to it.

It’s strange. I did know the power I had to change my perception and narrative, yet I wasn’t ready to fully embrace it. I’d like to think that not all awakening are “rude”; rather, some take longer to grow roots before they blossom.

So if there is anything that you’d want to take away from this post are these seeds — to hopefully one day colour and perfume your world through a new, empowering perception:

Surrender.

Get out of your own way. Create a new possibility for yourself.

Trust.

Trust that you already have what you need to reach the unfolding beauty that is this life.

Some freedoms are just a thought away

11 Comments

  1. Andie, thank you for the like on Tubularsock, “. . . first hand coverage, second hand news.”

    Enjoyed looking over you words and thoughts.

    As you already know your life is created by your thoughts in this illusion.

    Your reality is individual and you are the creator.

    Good luck with that and do stay safe.

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  2. Hi Andie. I hope you are well and are beginning to heal in your grief. It’s such early days yet; it will take time, so it’s important to be kind to yourself. I like this post and can definitely identify with having a narrative like you describe. Mine was, “I don’t do endings.” Very similar phrase to your own. I was never any good at dealing with endings, and I think I’ve reinforced that phrase to myself far too many times. However, now, I’m learning to say a relatively well-known expression which is, “when one door closes, another door opens.” It’s so true. I cope better with the dilemma I found myself in every time someone ‘leaves’ me or something can come to an end. I also love the way you explain, “I’d like to think that not all awakenings are “rude”; rather, some take longer to grow roots before they blossom.” That’s a lovely way of putting it. Take care, Andie xx 🌷

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